urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cptnspiffypants Captain Spiffypants Captain Spiffypants 2004-11-11T02:31:38Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cptnspiffypants:2592 2004-11-11T02:31:38Z 2004-11-11T02:31:38Z I just remembered that I had this thing. For the love of God, don't read this.<br /><br />God damn I was a whiny bitch. Stupid high school. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cptnspiffypants:1870 2001-06-20T05:48:42Z 2001-06-20T05:48:42Z I only see myself<br />Reflected in your eyes<br />So all that I believe I am<br />Essentially are lies<br />And everything I've hoped to be<br />or ever thought I was<br />Died with your belief in me<br />so who the hell am I?<br />I don't know if I'm real without you<br />What is left of me without you?<br />I don't know what's real without you<br />How can I exist without you?<br />I'm wondering 'round confused<br />Wondering why I try<br />The more that you deny my pain<br />The more it intensifies...<br />I need someone to ache for me<br />The way I ache for you<br />If you ignore that I'm alive<br />I've nothing to cling to<br />I don't know if I'm real without you<br />What is left of me without you?<br />I don't know what's real without you<br />How can I exist without you?<br />I stare in this mirror<br />So tired of this life<br />If only you would speak to me<br />Or care if I'm alive<br />Once I swore I would die for you<br />But I never meant it like this<br />(I never meant it like this)<br />No, I never meant it like this<br />I don't know if I'm real without you<br />What is left of me without you?<br />I don't know what's real without you<br />How can I exist without you?<br />How can I exist without you?<br />How can I exist without you?